Happy 420, most of our country is high on weed all day!

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This evening, you will observe a lot of people at the grocery store randomly buying bags of chips and other junk food. Their eyes will be bloodshot, and they might smell of a similar strange fragrance. To the normal person this might appear odd, but the rest of us know that today is a celebration for folks who smoke marijuana. April 20th is dubbed a marijuana holiday in our drug culture, where people get together and smoke cannabis. To summarize, there are a ton of people out there today who will be high. I didn’t realize the holiday had arrived, until I saw a group of my neighbors on their back porch last night firing up around 1am. Then it made sense, and I remembered the times when I would be one of those […more]

Thrown from roof of moving minivan, and runs naked along bypass

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This story unfolds this week in Reading, PA and is one of the most unbelievable and ridiculous stories I have ever heard. To summarize, a man was driving route 422 in Reading doing 55 mph. He proceeded to climb out his window onto the roof of his minivan, where I assume he was “surfing”. The van lost control and he was thrown over an embankment, which motorists witnessed and assumed he was dead. Suddenly, the man appeared with a huge gash in his side that […more]

Hallucinations, a reaction to medication or my mind?

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Am I hallucinating from the bipolar medication I am on, or am I just hallucinating? This is the question I asked myself as I observed the soda drop from the machine. In a typical office morning ritual, I was getting my caffeine buzz to wake up from the effects of the Seroquel that knocks me out at night. As I pushed the button, it was a slow motion flash that went through my mind. The soda can appeared almost surreal, and my thought were of the 1700’s and 1800’s. Would people of that era be amazed at a feat like this? Simply inserting a piece of paper into a mechanism, which results in a good being produced. Think of what people of that time had to do to get a simple good? Most products were made at home, with far more exertion and effort on part of the consumer. I bet in their wildest dreams, they would have never thought this possible. Let alone operating a machine to download “Amateur […more]

Happy St. Patricks Day… I don’t go out… Ever.

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Happy St. Patrick’s Day… a day that all of America uses as an excuse to go out and get sloshed. Instead of participating, I spent a quiet night at home. Monday Night Raw was on, and I’m a big fan of John Cena and fake wrestling. Lately, I’ve become a recluse who doesn’t like to go out. I stay at home, follow routines, and rarely hang out with friends anymore. It’s not that I don’t have friends, I received 3 calls to go out tonight for St. Patty’s. This has been going on for nearly a year now, and I enjoy keeping to myself. I often wonder if this personality change is related to my disease. At this point, I intentionally look for women who are “homebodies” and don’t like to go out and party. It’s been 3 weeks or so since things ended with my long-term girlfriend, aka the Promise Ring girl. It was a sudden and unexpected […more]

A night to remember, another panic attack and the feeling of dying.

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Let me explain why I take Seroquel, which is a neat little pill that almost knocks you out cold every night before bed. In the past 3 months, I’ve been suffering from panic attacks. Usually, the attacks happen right before bed while I am drifting off to sleep. A panic attack is one of the most horrific experiences, because you think you’re actually dying. Your heart races, and it feels like it is going to explode. All you want to do is just go to sleep, but you’re afraid you won’t wake up. The doctor put me on Seroquel (which is also used to treat Bipolar, a double shot with the Lithium), because it makes you fall asleep quickly. […more]

Famous bipolar people and genius creativity!

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When I am at work, I have a unique focus where I am “in the zone”. When I leave at the end of the day, it feels like I just got there. I never find myself watching the clock, and I love my job. The work that I do is my only priority, and you won’t find me wandering around the water cooler. Different supervisors and co-workers have commented on how I do a great job of getting my work done. I feel this can be contributed to being Bipolar, because for some reason the focus is beyond normal. Creativity also accompanies the focus, and I am always going “outside-the-box” with new ideas. I’m not trying to toot my own horn, I am just trying to make a point. Take a look at some of the famous/successful people who are […more]