From the readers: A new section with interesting reader letters posted!
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Thinking outside the box, let me present “From the readers”. I receive various emails, Myspace messages, and comments on the site… as well as unrelated stories of bipolarities. Some are interesting, and some are just plain crazy. Regardless, I have learned from them and want to share them with the rest of the readers. Reader postings will only be posted with the permission from the author. Identities will be kept confidential unless the author wants credit for their work. If you have something to express, I encourage you to reach out. I enjoy the interaction, and the perceptions of others. Let me present the first e-mail I received, that made me want to post from the readers!Anonymous Submission: 27 year old female, unedited
hey man, thanks for telling me what you’ve been through…i know that we’ve barely been talkin for a minute, but i got some bad news, and i sort of need to talk to someone about it…
yesterday i got arrested for shoplifting at a grocery store. It wasn’t the first time i had done it, actually i had done it over and over and over again at the same store, and no one ever stopped me or the security thing never went off, so i thought i was getting away with it. Its been going on for a while now, i must have taken at least $200 worth of stuff. I did it for the rush I felt cuz i thought i was getting away with it. Yesterday I PAID FOR the main shit, but still popped a few things in my purse b/c i had to have that high. Well, i was walking to my car when the manager stopped me and wanted to see my purse. Then i went up to the office and called my mom and sister (who’s a lawyer, by the way) and they told me they had me on camera and had taken pics of me. but they never knew my name and only certain people in the store can stop shoplifters. So then i get taken away in a cop car to the detention center, and they said that they’re gonna press charges cuz i’ve been doing it over and over again, but they’re only gonna charge me for the stuff i took yesterday, which was only about $10.00. So then i get in the cop car and get taken to the sheriff’s dept b4 the jail so that my sister can bring my my meds. (i told the manager i was bipolar) then i get taken to the detention center and luckily i got the last bond hearing of the night. Then i wait in a cell until my sister comes get me. It was a fuckin nightmare, and the only good thing is that they said that they wouldn’t tell my employer (i work at a daycare and go to school, but the daycare is really close to the store, thats why id always go in after work)
I don’t want to use the bipolar as an excuse, i knew what i was doing, i knew it was bad, its just that i had gotten away with it so many times that i thought i was invincible. Now i gotta go to court and hopefully it can be taken off of my record. But the worst part is that my brother in law is running for police chief in my town and all the cops know who both he AND my sister are. I have basically ruined their reputations. He’s out of town, but she told him was was going on. Its not so much what happens to me, its what i did to them, and my mom.
I’m gonna go find a psychiatrist to talk to, and try to find a church to go to, b/c i haven’t had any sort of religious guidance in my life. I’m a fucking mess right now, and if my sister hadn’t brought my medicine to me, i may have gone into a manic episode. Anyways, thats not the only bad thing i do. I have a really big porno collection, and when a friend told me about pornotube, i started watching it online. I’ve just been living this double life where i was getting away with shit, and now its all coming back to me.
I’m just lucky to be sitting here at school as if nothing has happened and not sitting in jail waiting for a bond hearing. This is my first run in with the law, and i knew it was going to catch up wit me sooner or later. anyways, thanks for letting me vent. bye.
Screeb’s Reflection
Often in our lives, we have pent up emotion and need to vent. This letter is from deep within the soul, and my heart goes out to her. Often times, I do bad things even though I know it is wrong. The thrill is the motivation, and the rush is addicting. Four years ago, I was dating a girl who confided in me about how she had a similar shoplifting addiction. She and her friend would both go to expensive department stores and steal. They had money, but they just did it as a rush. The items they stole weren’t needed or even worth anything, but the adrenaline was irresistible. I fear this woman suffers from the same compulsion. This is a great example of how your actions can catch up with you in the end.
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This letter kind of pisses me off, using BiPolar disorder in a totally unrelated episode is WRONG, it is more wrongthan stealing something from a department store,becaue she is stealing voices that need to really be heard! if everyone starts doing this,people with legitamite concerns and problems due to theirdisorder will be overlooked. I have panic disorder and becauseeveryoneabuses the meds for it,such as Xanax or other Benzos, I have a hard time getting my medication that I need….it really makes me mad to seesomeone messed up on these pills because they are adding to my difficulties!
Being bipolar is not an excuse for shoplifting. Especially if you’re not having any extreme episodes (mania or depression).
What’s wrong with shoplifting and porn?
Shoplifting & Porn Suck! Your left feeling dirty after both. When I get out of control & skip my Meds or don’t sleep, I let the Bipolar take me over.(Bipolar is not a kind of person it is a state of mind) At that point I can see what I’m doing is wrong but no longer have self control to stop. I take responsibility and face my consequences, I say I am sorry a lot!. Then I start to separate my behavior. When did I start going down hill, what was my trigger, did I eat today, did I sleep my 9hrs, did I take my Meds, have I over scheduled myself, on and on. I drill myself on how I got to that point and how to catch myself next time. With this mood disorder their will be a next time…. My outlook us very much about preserving my marriage, relationships with 2 Sons, Mom, friends ect. Preserving for me means keeping my circle small, reaching out then coming back to my security, this helps me want to be healthy. I am constantly rechecking my routine, I desire to be the best Me w/bipolar disorder, I will fight to the death.
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger!
I know it’s been months since you posted this, so if you’re still in touch with this female who shoplifted and she still feels guilty… tell her she shouldn’t be so hard on herself.
I suppose it’s all about how high (or low) people set their standards and expectations. In her case, she sets them relatively high. Shoplifting is wrong and it is certainly a problem, but not so ’sinister’ as she sees it.
And as for ruining her bro-in-law’s and sister’s reputation, ppshh! It’s not as though she was arrested for robbing a bank and having people at gunpoint or killing someone or something even worse: molesting a child. Now THAT is majorly F’d up and it can ruin her family’s political reputation and careers. I’ve either read or heard about cops and politicians who have children, spouses, or any other family members that have done MUCH worse things than shoplifting, but these cops’ and politicians’ careers still flourished…
I can understand that her mother would get upset; however, if (and emphasize the word IF) her mother and the rest of the family (or anyone else) treats her as though she’s a scumbag just for shoplifting, well, I just hope she won’t believe it. No person is a scumbag for shoplifting; they just have a serious problem. Like I said, it’s wrong, but it’s not devastatingly and harmfully wrong in comparison to what TONS of other wrong-doers do each day to their victims.
I suppose shoplifting is equivalent to drugs in her case. She does it for the rush, but when she’s sober she feels an awful amount of guilt. That is something forgivable. I just hope that she was able to cure her itchy fingers for her own sake; and, I hope her family did forgive her and helped her to stop the problem.
Btw, she should also realise that watching porn is sooooo minor. Nothing wrong watching that. That’s a human trait, man. It’s human to have lust in our hearts. I don’t care if priests or reverends etc., etc., says that watching porn or having sex is a major sin and a shameful deep dark secret to have… after all, how many priests have been guilty of molesting boys. THAT IS SO HARMFUL TO A CHILD. That is something to be ashamed of. Pricks! And how many politicians and religious leaders have been caught going to strip bars, prostitutes. Anyone remember Swaggart? He sinned once, asked ppl and God to forgive him… and then he sinned again. Hahahaha! *sigh* good times